Saturday, November 5, 2011
Yarn Writing
It's hard for me to be creative under stress. Yet, somehow I always seem to find time to do needlework. It keeps me sane.
Right now I'm working with a non profit organization that helps homeless women and children.
As with most social service organizations, they tend to treat people of color like subordinates.
Yet, the majority of the women who work there knit or crochet. However, when I tell them I do the same most of them look at me like I have three heads or act like I have to prove my skills.
I realized that I have to stop letting my insecurities to get the best of me. I do not have to prove anything to anyone. But sometimes the stress of living in a racist society makes us tend to second guess ourselves.
This is an honest assessment. In my experience some Black people claim they never do this. But I doubt it. If we are honest with ourselves we recognize that no matter how strong or aware we think we are;we all have short comings.
Anyway, I'm going to keep on doing my needle work. I take pride in my work an it gives me solace. I just completed a Alpaca shell lace scarf, a bulky weight fisherman's knit ribbed cowl, and the collar for a shrug sweater. I'm still working on finishing my UFOs. But I want to start another sweater ( but I need to get the yarn and needles for it) a red lace scarf and some more cowls.
I've yet to restart my fledgling crafts business, because I'm in the process of keeping on keeping on. I'm lucky to have a job. But in spite of the false propaganda its still hard for any Black person to find and keep a decent job no matter what your educational background and experience is.
Right now I'm working with a non profit organization that helps homeless women and children.
As with most social service organizations, they tend to treat people of color like subordinates.
Yet, the majority of the women who work there knit or crochet. However, when I tell them I do the same most of them look at me like I have three heads or act like I have to prove my skills.
I realized that I have to stop letting my insecurities to get the best of me. I do not have to prove anything to anyone. But sometimes the stress of living in a racist society makes us tend to second guess ourselves.
This is an honest assessment. In my experience some Black people claim they never do this. But I doubt it. If we are honest with ourselves we recognize that no matter how strong or aware we think we are;we all have short comings.
Anyway, I'm going to keep on doing my needle work. I take pride in my work an it gives me solace. I just completed a Alpaca shell lace scarf, a bulky weight fisherman's knit ribbed cowl, and the collar for a shrug sweater. I'm still working on finishing my UFOs. But I want to start another sweater ( but I need to get the yarn and needles for it) a red lace scarf and some more cowls.
I've yet to restart my fledgling crafts business, because I'm in the process of keeping on keeping on. I'm lucky to have a job. But in spite of the false propaganda its still hard for any Black person to find and keep a decent job no matter what your educational background and experience is.
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